1. Exposure

After many negative impressions in my past on my being. After the many types of people who has met me and were introduced to the unique me. It caused me to gain all types of perspectives. I have been presented with a lot of ideologies from homosexuality, idolatry to traditional religion. But deep down, I knew I wanted something better. Like I felt that there was an identity that was deep down within me I haven't discovered and met yet. An identity that matched the design in which I was created. Many people ignore this core feeling in them. But what I didn't know was what would happen before I understood why I was created....

2. Struggles

Many people express and even promote their physical struggles. But here I want to take this opportunity to express only my inner struggles. It was only when light was shed on my inner heart and it's elements, that I have been able to stand on a foundation in life that brought me true happiness. If you read my Goods, Bads and Uglies you will see and learn over time that life wasnt simple for me. I inherited allot of fallible ideologies from many people whom I was surrounded by. Some whom I suppose loved me, some whom hated me, some whom despised me. But I can tell you this, I have always sought answers in most people for the definition of "love" that defined the pain that I experienced over the years from the divorce of family, friends and people, the pain experienced overtime, and other immoral things that occurred in relationships with people. It didn't matter rather it was my parents who made a covenant with each other or a simple friend who made a promise that they didn't fulfill. Broken covenants damages the soul. And I feel it. I've been physically, and mentally abused by people who intentionally didn't care for nothing but themselves. And I was supposed to trust them..... Can you imagine if God broke his covenant with you since we are to be like Him? If you knew your scripture you'd know, You wouldn't be here reading this! Then there comes the abuse by people who didn't know they was fulfilling selfishness in the process of our relationship. Which means it was unintentional. Anything that you're exposed to will eventually reflect itself off to others. That means all the immorality, negativity and even abuse along with the good, will and can be seen within you from your past experience by others. With that, I ask for forgiveness from those that I may have exposed to my past iniquites through my words, actions and deeds. YOU know who you are. Please forgive me.

However, Jesus fixes this if people just knew Him better daily. I'm at fault for not listening to those pointing the way to Jesus's healing. I was ignorant to those who pointed to Him! For that I ask the forgivesness of thoses who advised me of Jesus! And for those who hasn't experienced a powerful change in life of purpose, word (speech) and direction seek Jesus please!

With that said, I must mention that I forgive all because this revelation comes at different times in people life and nobody ever have all the answers. I know I can't be forgiven unless I forgive.... But I just think it's imperative that people know my outlook and how I feel when it comes to past relationships. Just opinions. I have more coming, stay tuned.

3. Iniquities

Scripture states in Corinthians 15:33:

"Bad company corrupts Good Character"

And growing up, even though my heart was set on being different than those who didn't have my best interest at heart, I ended up retaining elements that sent a type of destructive force with those part of my future journey. A type of iniquity that could leave one speechless and may have scarred others if Jesus wasn't there. For that I pray everyday.... However, as life continues for everyone, true revelation simply rely on these two words "But God...."

More to Come